Thursday, November 6, 2014

"Change is inevitable but personal growth is a choice."

     You really have to take a HUGE step back and look at the big picture.  The truth about motherhood is that it's the one and only thing that truly changes the person you knew yourself to be.  It changes you.  Change is difficult.  Change is GOOD! 

     Sometimes, I'll see and old picture of myself from my 20's and think, I don't even really know that person anymore.  I am who I am now because I am a mother.  I love how much being a mother has changed me.  I realized how strong of a person I am emotionally and mentally...especially when it comes to having to make tough decisions regarding the best interest of my son.  I realized how strong I am physically as well.  I'm not buldging with muscles or anything, but you don't realize how much strength it physically takes to get a 20lbs baby + 16lb carseat in and out of the car.  I digress.  I just think with so much change in such a small amount of time it's encouraging to recognize how much you've grown as a person.  I came across this quote and I find it to be very inspiring, and I hope that it is for you too.
     As a mother, I see how easy and dangerous it is to feel like life is spinning out of control, moving too quickly, and you can't quite stay caught up on everything that you used to.  That can make you feel like you are missing out on things.  But if you realize how much growth has come from the change you are experiencing there is so much to be proud of.  Seven months ago, I was not confident in my skills as a mother, I wasn't sure if I'd be able to tell the difference if my baby was hungry or tired.  I didn't know if I'd be patient enough or be able to deal with sleep deprivation.  I didn't know if I'd be able to watch him get shots at the doctor.  I didn't know if my marriage would suffer.  I didn't know if my friendships would suffer.  I didn't know if I could handle being a mom and working full-time.  I've grown so much!  I have so much to be proud of.  Not for nothing, I'm proud of the the mother I am to Landry because I am doing the best I can.  And if I ever have any doubt, I just need to see that gummy smile on his face when I walk into the room.