I hate to say this, but lets be honest...we live in a world, an age of unbelief. Need an example? Fear, doubt, worry, care...that is all unbelief and it comes from many sources. For me, a huge source of unbelief came from a little social network known as facebook. I would sign on to facebook and there in my face without me asking to see it is another pregnancy announcement. That person is most likely facing their own struggles in life and most likely did not post their pregnancy annoucement on facebook to hurt my feelings, yet I took it personally. And it happened again, and again, and again. First of all, it made me care about the fact that I'm not pregnant and never have been. That in turn made me full of worry, worried that I'm going to continue to see pregnant women, ultrasound pictures, and babies everywhere I looked. That in turn filled me with fear. My fears sounded like this, "well what if God doesn't fufill his promise to me? I'm scared I will never get pregnant." Does any of this ring a bell with you? Can you relate?
What I learned is this, and pay attention to this now: Unbelief cancels out your faith.
Read that again.
So here I sit with faith stronger than it's ever been but I have unbelief. Well, then in short, nothing I pray for will manifest because I'm not going anywhere. I'm stagnant if I carry this unbelief. Scary. Now I questioned myself, what can I do about this unbelief? I certainly don't want it, but what can I do to get rid of it? Honestly, I'm still working on getting rid of it all...but I'm taking steps to change, and that's progress. For one, I said good bye to facebook. My world survived before facebook came along, and it will survive after I've deactivated my account. I've also unsubscribed to everyone on youtube who is trying to conceive. Hear me out. I have built friendships with these women who have also been faced with infertility issues. So, if I have built true friendships, they will withstand the idea of me unsubscribing from them. The reason I have done this is so when I go to youtube, my subscriptions that pop up are not constant reminders of trying to get pregnant. When I go on to youtube now, my subscriptions are to people that either inspire me, encourage me, or make me laugh. For me, and my journey of growth, I will not be constantly reminded of situations that feed my unbelief. It's time to let go of fear, doubt, worry, and care and cast them to our Father. He has given us everything we need, it's just a matter of trusting Him.