Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Quote of the Day

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept trying when there seemed to be no hope at all" - Dale Carnegie

This quote sums up how I'm feeling at the moment, don't have much else to say...

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Quote of the Day

"Feeling sorry for yourself, and your present condition, is not only a waste of energy, but the worst habit you could possibly have." - Dale Carnegie

I can't tell you how many times I've had to remind myself of this before I opened my mouth to complain about something. I am aware of how blessed I am, and that in reality I have nothing to complain about. Some days it's harder than others not to feel sorry for yourself...especially when trying to get pregnant! Or any other frustrating situation you might be dealing with.
My focus is no longer on what I don't have, but what I do have. I have SO much to be thankful for and I'm blessed beyond belief. My family, my friends, and my health, are things that can't be replaced. Reflection on my life is my daily exercise...feels good!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Starting Fresh...again

With every month that passes without successfully conceiving, I get a sense of refreshment (after a major bout of depression, anger, and saddness) and I get to start new, try something different, and slowly but surely my motivation creeps back in. Since I have found a group of very supportive women via twitter and YouTube, I have gained so much knowledge and information. This was my first time hearing of the vitamin called Vitex and I went out and bought some last night. I have yet to try them, but I've done a lot of research on them so I feel completely comfortable taking them.
Anyhow...I'm feeling hopeful again and I'm looking forward to what the future holds.

Monday, February 20, 2012

F x 3

Life can take some very unpredicted twists and turns, and at the end of the day there are three things that are important: Family, Friends, and Faith.

This weekend was really rough for me. stressful to say the least and it has never been more apparent to me just how much I needed my family, my friends, and my faith. Nothing else seems to matter if I have those three things. Honestly, think about your WORST day...I'm willing to bet that the 3 F's helped you get through it.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

The waiting game

Here we go again...the dreaded TWW (two week wait). The hardest part for me about trying to conceive is finding patience. Besides that, I'm driving myself crazy scrutinizing every little "sign" that could mean I'm pregnant. I'm not due for another cycle until the end of February, which seems so far away. Tick tock.
Cris has been so supportive and I swear, I love him more now than the day I married him. I love him more with every day that passes. He's my rock. My adorable, spontaneous, hilarious rock.
Today (two days after Valentines Day) he surprised me with a Pandora bracelet! I'm so excited to add charms as we continue this ridiculously hard yet unbelievably beautiful journey called life together.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Valentines Day

Today is a day to celebrate love. Love of all for a spouse, boyfriend/girlfriend, child, parent, grandparent, friend, family member, or pet! Grab someone you love and just tell them how blessed you are to have them in your life. Happy Valentines Day to all!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Quote of the Day

"Surround yourself with only people that lift you higher"- Oprah Winfrey

It's draining to go on to Facebook or Twitter and see so many people complain...and these are people that are very blessed but are too blind to realize it.

I always felt bad or even guilty for deleting people off of fB but sometimes I think the negativity of people's thought process brings me down and I'm not going to continue to allow those people to affect my daily mood.

I might not have the best life, the most money, the best clothes, cars, or house...and everyone faces daily difficulties...but instead of complaining about it and bring everyone down, I embrace every difficulty as an opportunity and try to learn from it. I do this because I choose to be happy. Ridding people that feed off of negativity has been refreshing.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Quote of the Day

“Success is not final, failure is not is the courage to continue that counts.” - Winston Churchill

Everyday can be a struggle, whether you are a wounded veteran that lost your limbs and physically struggle to do daily activities that we so often take for granted, or you are struggling with a mental disorder such as anxiety or depression, or you are just emotionally drained from some difficult life situation. It's so easy to focus on your own problems and dwell on the negative aspects of your personal situation...we get wrapped up in what if's and why me's. However, if you take a step back and look at your life as a whole, I'm willing to bet that you are more blessed than many. I'm not perfect, my life is not perfect by any means, and I have my bad days too and I struggle to keep a positive attitude of every second of everyday. However, at least I try and continue to try and that is what I feel makes me a strong individual.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Quote of the Day

"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them, that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like." - Lao Tzu

It's a relieving feeling when you just accept whatever it is that is causing turmoil and just accept the outcome no matter which way the road will turn. The frustration, confusion, and energy spent on trying to fight whatever it is your fighting isn't worth the hassle. Sometimes I just count to three slowly and get a "restart" to how I am going to choose to feel about something. Is the thing that is making me upset/frustrated/angry in my control to change it? If no, then I have to change the way I think about it or else it's going to drain every last bit of energy from me. Things I want to be better at: Rolling with the punches...going with the flow...letting whatever happens, happen.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Happy Friday!

The weekend is fast approaching. I love weekends...I feel like its my time to let my hair down and relax. Tonight, Cris and I are meeting up with old friends for a drink while we watch the amazing Tim and Jules make magic with their musical talent. Surrounding myself with positive people, places, and's what I do.

"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity, an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty" - Winston Churchill

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Quote of the Day

"Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice." - Wayne Dyer

You are responsible for how you feel. You can blame external things if you want to, but it won't change how things are. Even on my hardest days it's important to stay grounded and realize all there is to be grateful for. It's a challenge on some days to see the silver lining but if you look hard enough, you can find it.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

What Does Not Kill You...makes you crazy

Went to the ObGyn today...went there to discuss the fact that it's been 10 months of trying and still haven't been able to get pregnant. Unless you have gone through this, you couldn't imagine the frustration and devastation of it all. There are days where I'm so strong and I have new found hope that it will be my turn soon...then there are days when I crumble and can't understand why it hasn't happened yet. I know, I know...good things take time. I've heard EVERYTHING...from try this, try that, don't try at all...and everyone always has some kind of advice to throw your way.
So...went to the doc today and we have a plan. If I'm not pregnant in
two more months, the testing will begin. I'm hoping this brings some type of satisfaction instead of just wondering if and when 24/7...and that if it doesn't happen by then, at least we will be on the road to some answers.
I am sad for those that are out there that also struggle with this...but I am glad that it is becoming more of a discussed topic so that we don't struggle alone. It's so common among women yet no one discusses it because of all the confusing emotions behind it. And there are days when I'm not up for talking about it at all...and then there are days like this when blogging calms my soul.