E.R. Visit

Hands down, this was the scariest thing to happen to me. According to my FET due date calculator I should be around 5 weeks and 4 days. I went to work, nothing out of the norm. I had a nice morning, enjoyed my morning decaf Lipton tea, checked my emails, and began my usual duties. A few hours passed and I was just sitting in my cubicle when I felt a small popping sensation. It kind of felt like my period had started...in my head I think I may have said, "what was that?"...and I looked down and my pants and chair were saturated in blood. I jumped up and got my coworker and said "come with me I'm gushing blood" and began to ran to the nearest bathroom. By the time I sat on the toilet my pants all the way to my thighs were soaked in blood. I was TERRIFIED and thinking the worst. My whole body was trembling. My coworker got me a few pads and said she would be out front to rush me to the ER. Once I was there, I was given a room where they started an IV in me to take blood. I couldn't wait for Cris to get there, I was so scared. Once Cris came, they took us back to get an ultrasound. The tech said she wasn't allowed to tell us anything. My head was spinning. They wheeled me back to the room and we waited for what felt like forever.  The doctor came in and told us that the u/s is still showing a pregnancy, as well as my HCG beta level was a hair over 25,000, which is a great number.  There was one more thing to be done before they could release me. They had to do a pelvic exam to make sure my cervix was closed. If it was open, that is a sign that my body would be trying to expel the baby. Thank God it was closed. They sent me home and now I have to wait until Friday for an ultrasound. This wait is killing me, but I feel good knowing I haven't bled since. Just trying to stay hopeful that our little "Ducky" is still growing <3

Pregnant!

I can't believe I'm typing these words. But in fact, on July 28, 2013 I found out I was pregnant!!! I actually had a dream that I was peeing on an HPT and it came up positive. I woke up around 5:45am and went to the bathroom...I peed into a cup so I could save my first morning urine. I dipped the stick and placed my head and in my hands and began to pray. The second I started praying the skies opened up and it POURED! The rain was so loud. As it began to dissipate I turned my head towards the test to peek...and what I saw I will cherish forever...