Thursday, July 17, 2014

Sleep...or lack there of...


Wait, your baby is how old?  He’s not sleeping through the night yet? Have you tried…..

     Honestly…I’ve heard that line more than necessary.  You know what is more frustrating than not getting any sleep?  Listening to everyone else’s magical tale of how they got their baby to sleep through the night.  When are people going to understand that having a baby is not a cookie-cutter type of situation?  Every baby is different, every parent is different, and for pete’s sake, every baby’s sleeping, eating, pooping, and playing pattern is different.  So just zip it already!
     I’m totally all for getting advice, WHEN I ASK FOR IT.  But if you yourself are a mom and know what it feels like to be sleep deprived, why on Earth would you give unsolicited advice about how to put a baby to sleep so that they sleep through the night?  You’re just going to end up the making the overly exhausted mother feel like an even bigger failure.
     On that note, Landry had his first night where he didn’t exactly sleep through the night,  but he also didn’t wake every two hours to eat.  No, I’m not going to list here step by step what we did to make that happen because guess what,  no matter what I say, your baby is different and you might get different result.  On the other hand if you’re interested, just ask, I don’t mind sharing.
     All I really wanted to tell you is that we all have been there and you aren’t alone.  Nothing can prepare you for the exhaustion you are going to experience as a mom.  Or guilt, but that’s a whole ‘nother blog post.  I just hope you find comfort in knowing that those bags under your eyes and your hair that hasn’t been washed in four days, is all very normal and accepted here in mommy-land. As hard as these nights and days can be, just embrace it, because all too soon that baby that we are getting up for, won’t be a baby anymore and you’ll miss the late night hours of mommy-baby time.
     Ending this blog post with my true feelings…there is nothing that compares to the love I have for my son…I’d stay up every single hour of every single day if I could just to soak up every little ounce of him.  I’m beyond blessed and I’ll never forget the struggle I endured to conceive such a miracle.  I’ll sleep when I’m dead :)

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Slacker McSlackerson

Oh my gosh...I can't believe how badly I have slacked at updating my blog!  Welp...better late than never, right?  Landry is 14 weeks old.  He is seriously the light of our lives.  He brings us so much joy it's truly incredible.  The highlights of his third month are jumping in his bouncer and giggling.  He loves attention and will actually make a fuss if he's not getting any.  He wants to make sure you are watching him have fun (just like his daddy).
Landry celebrated his first July 4th holiday this month.  He slept through the LOUD fireworks going off right next to our house.  He also transitioned into the crib that very same night.  He did amazing!  And to be 100% honest, he sleeps so much better in his crib.  His sprawls out and is loving all the space he has.  I guess the bassinet was getting a little tight, but I didn't want to move him to his crib until we an AC unit in his room, which we do now.  Its been quite hot, especially on the 2nd floor of our house.  Having a nice cool room for him to sleep in has helped him stay asleep longer (or so I like to think, because I sleep better when it's cool instead of hot).
My little sister had her baby on June 24th and I am an aunt once again, but this time I have been blessed with a NIECE!  She's beautiful.  Her name is Kellie Grace and I'm smitten.  I can't wait to babysit in the near future.  It's so nice having a sister that was pregnant while I was and now has a little baby.  We swap stories and advice and it is comforting to both of us knowing we are in this together.

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Late night feeding thoughts to Landry 3

You are so funny!!! The faces and expressions you make are priceless. You smile at the perfect time. For example, you were in your bassinet, making noises, when I looked in at you and said "shhh".  Just then you gazed into my eyes and smiled! A smile so big I swear you were going to laugh! It's moments like those that I will never forget. I love you so much!

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Easter 2014

Taking this time to wish my baby boy a Happy 1st Easter! Landry is 23 days old today as we celebrate this Resurrection Sunday. We went to church as a family and then celebrated with our families afterward. It was a beautiful day and to say that I feel blessed is an understatement. Thanking God every single night for blessing me with another day that I spend precious time with my loved ones. God bless! 

Monday, April 14, 2014

Late Night Feeding Thoughts to Landry 2

When you smile, even if it's from gas, I swear in that moment the whole world stops. 4/15/14 2:44am

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Late Night Feeding Thoughts to Landry 1

I look at you and can't believe you are mine. You are completely perfect and you  perfectly complete me
4/13/14 9:55pm

Monday, March 3, 2014

Keep on truckin'...


This past week was quite one of the more stressful weeks I have had.  First of all, Cris has the flu!  I knew he was sicker than he was leading on.  You know men, they hate going to the doctor and he was playing it off that he was not feeling that terrible.  I guess my "motherly instincts" kicked in a few weeks early because I knew that he needed to be seen by a professional.  After a little bit of coaxing, Cris went to the doctor and found out that he had the flu.  I'm so glad that he was tested because from there he was put on Tamiflu and I also have been put on it as a preventative.  So far, I have not felt any flu symptoms and I'm thanking God every free second I get.  I can't not imagine having the flu while pregnant, that would be not only so awful but seriously dangerous.
I also received the news that my platelets are continuing to drop.  When I was first tested, my platelets were at 125,000, then they dropped to 110,000, and this last time they dropped to 101,000.  I was told if they go under 100,000 that I will need to be referred to a hematologist and that they will most likely start me on steroids to raise the platelet count.  I have one last blood test today to test the platelets.  I am so sick of being jabbed with needles, you have no idea.  If there was ever a time that I thought I couldn't handle needles, I've proved to myself a thousand times over that I'm a professional pin cushion.  I don't even flinch anymore.
I'm exactly 33 days away from my estimated due date.  Its a bit surreal to know that I might have a baby THIS MONTH.  I honestly just can not wait to meet Landry.  I want to see him so badly.  I've dreamed of this little boy for three years now.  I will never forget the first dream I had about him...he was just a baby with this mop of blond curly hair (side note, I believe that Landry will look just like Cris so the fact that he had blonde hair in my dream was very far fetched lol), and he had big blue eyes and I was carrying him on my hip walking around a shopping mall and everyone was stopping me to say what a beautiful baby he was.  One older woman stopped me and said, "What is this angels name?" and even though realistically, Landry would not have been old enough to talk, this little high pitched voice comes bouncing out of his mouth and he said, "I'm LANDRY!" and we all laughed with surprise.  I had many more dreams of a little boy after that, and each one the boy looked different but I truly believe that I knew Landry was a boy from the second he was conceived.  I always had that feeling.  So to know that I'm just a few days away from meeting this little one, well I can't even put into words how anticipated this moment is.  I love him SO much already and I can't wait to fall in love with him even more.